What you want is what you really want?

I am so in love with me.
I love how smart I am.
I love how everything is unfolding.
I love the clarity I receive in every moment.
I love my two perspectives.
I love that everything improves.
I realized that everything I wanted until now, was just this society induced in my mind to want, let’s take as an example a relationship,
I wanted a relationship because I had to be in one like others are,
I wanted a relationship to not be alone, in this reality are a lot of awful beliefs that give birth to the fear of being alone, which in fact is the best thing for you and the rest of the world, every great artist or genius, made their masterpieces from their physical time alone.
I wanted a relationship because this is what I saw everywhere, everyone was having a relationship and those who haven’t one were longing for one.
I wanted a relationship to be accepted or validated by the people around me.
Now I don’t want to be like the others.
Now I love to be alone because only then I can find myself.
Now I don’t need or care for the approval of others.
So a relationship is what I really want? Now with all my knowing I still want a relationship?
Right now I know that the most important thing in this life is the wonderful emotions that I feel, so the only reason I could ever want a relationship is for fun. Because I think that having sometimes someone to laugh with, eat with, to cook with, to share my knowing with, to do things with, will enhance my good feeling. Although this belief could be also something that this society wants me to believe.
I love my peace and how everything is going.

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